Captain’s Log

I wish I could write as quickly as I can think.  I need to get my head screwed on straight.  It seems as though I can’t even do the simplest of things.  It is an immense struggle even to write these things down.  It has been ten minutes since that last sentence was written, all the while I was trying to write something.

Oh.  Right.  I remember what it is now.  No one believes in me.  That’s a terrible excuse, but it’s the only thing I can come up with.  Sometimes I wonder if I even believe in me.

Pause! Cigarette.

Unpause.

I’ve turned off the music I had playing.  Music takes me away from what’s in front of me.

I finally don’t have to rely on that damn blue pen.  I find it amusing that I still have it, though.

To do list:

Fix lights on boat (Checked off on Moon 266)

New Mainsail Cover

Find out info on new job (Checked)

Finish cleaning boat (Checked)

Take of sweatshirt (Checked)

Write like a madman

Swim like a madman

Be a madman (Checked)

Get naked (Checked)

Stop drinking rootbeer (Checked Moon 266)

Be stronger

Be faster

Be more enduring

Regain lost pride (Checked Moon 266)

Stop this for now because this entry is terrible and you need sleep to see Lauren tomorrow (Checked)